I’ve spent the last five days packing up for the big move – and no, it’s not Uncle C. I’m still convinced he’s not going anywhere. It was my in-laws. A couple of weeks ago my father-in-law called to inform us that they had decided to move into an assisted living facility. Honestly, I think that is a very courageous, unselfish decision on their part. It has to be difficult to come to that conclusion after years of living and raising a family in the same home. They had been talking about it for about a year, but once they made the decision they were ready to go – NOW! That did pose a few problems.
Problem number one was that we live 700 miles away. Problem number two was that they were moving from a house of around 2,000 square feet into a 360 square foot assisted living apartment. The entire place is 18 feet by 20 feet. Ouch!
Once we told our kids that their grandparents were moving out of their home they all wanted to help. They also wanted to enjoy the old homestead one last time. All three made arrangements to be there. On Thursday my son flew into the nearest city with an airport which is about an hour away from my hubby’s hometown. Their town is very small. So tiny, in fact, that the majority of the streets are still brick. It is very quaint, but it’s like taking a step back into the 60’s, like visiting Mayberry. I keep waiting to spot Sheriff Taylor and Deputy Barney Fife walking down the street. (Am I dating myself? Certainly some of you remember The Andy Griffith Show!) Our two daughters along with our granddaughter drove 12 hours through the night on Friday, arriving around 7:00 a.m. on Saturday. They had about a day and a half with their grandparents before leaving Sunday evening to return home. Thank God they made it home safely – both had to be exhausted.
Hubby has one sister still living in their hometown, but his two brothers also drove in, both traveling several hours. My in-laws wanted family members to take items with them – furniture, old family photos, paintings, kitchenware, memorabilia, etc. Honestly, I need nothing. My house is jam-packed with stuff I had before Uncle C came to live with us and I ended up with even more after his arrival. But I didn’t have the heart to tell my mother-in-law that I wanted none of her treasures. I ended up bringing home one small table, some family pictures and a couple of other small items she wouldn’t let me leave without.
My father-in-law took it all in stride, but my mother-in-law seemed to be struggling with leaving her home. She had trouble deciding where to start, what to take, what to leave. I can only imagine the emotions that must have been raging through her. So much is collected over a lifetime. How do you decide that one item with so much history, so much sentimental value is not worth keeping, yet another is?
But in the end, it is all just stuff. And though it is hard to part with things that are special to you, the real tragedy is that this elderly couple can no longer care for themselves and feel the need to move out of the home they love. Yes, a huge burden will be lifted from my mother-in-law’s shoulders. She is the one preparing meals, cleaning, washing, caring for my father-in-law. But there is something so sad about actually giving up your independence, giving up your home.
The reality of it all hit when we visited the facility in which they are moving. The fact that the doors are always locked – inside and out – struck me as just wrong. I can understand keeping strangers out. But keeping the residents locked in “for their own safety” is difficult to wrap my mind around. My in-laws are moving into an “assisted living” facility. They are not invalids. They are of a right mind, as apparently are the other residents. So why the locked doors? They have to ask to be let out of the building and give a description of where they are going and how long they plan to be out. Honestly, I think my father-in-law will hate that. And if there is any deal breaker for him, that will be it.
Once allowed in, we walked into a room of elderly people mouthing the words to old hymns as a woman played the piano. They just stared at us, blank looks on their faces. My thoughts were that my in-laws did not belong here. They are more active than that. My father-in-law still plays bridge three times a week. My mother-in-law plays a couple of times a week. He still drives (he shouldn’t, but he does) and they do their own shopping, go to church, go to the casino, etc.
The second shocker was walking into the actual apartment they will be living in and seeing just how tiny it actually is. It is one thing to say “360 square feet”. It is totally different to actually see that space. There is one living area, one bedroom, one bath, a closet and a kitchenette. I don’t even think their queen size bed will fit in the bedroom with enough space for them to walk around to get to the bathroom. But, it’s a decision they made on their own. No one is pushing them. No one is forcing them. And the good part is that they are not obligated to stay. If they hate it they can leave. The problem with that is where to go next. Their house will have a renter and the only other facility in town has an eight month wait.
Growing old is difficult. Body parts begin to break down, the mind sometimes goes. And then you get to a point where you can’t care for yourself anymore, you have to rely on others. It is such a sad time in life. Maybe I’ll be there one day. I hope not. I never want to be a burden on loved ones. No one does. But if I do, I hope I am as strong as my in-laws.
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